Returning Light


May you enjoy the winter solstice…

May love fill your hearts…

May the returning light fill you with renewed energy for life!

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The Light

The Light

Prayers on the winged one brings us closer to spirit. As we create a relationship with spirit, we create a relationship with self. Spirit is like communicating with a trusted friend ~ you share your life, then listen for advice.

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Seasons of Change


The Island

Crossing Penobscot Bay at night always makes my heart smile. It’s even better when I can enjoy the night sky, not quite blue, not quite purple, but the simple darkness of it surrounded by beautiful sparkling stars. I love to watch the lights of our quaint little town disappear to just a line on the horizon. I love the scents of the salty air as it fills my senses, and on occasion when the deep bay waves are high I am delighted with the taste of sea on my lips. I call it Penobscot Bay Margarita’s without the Tequila and the headache…

The island is so quiet, summer people have gone home, and just those that love her most linger into fall and right through to the first real snow fall.

You can hear your breath as you inhale and exhale, you can hear your footsteps as you walk her paths of grass and gravel. No tar roads to be found here, no tar anywhere, just natural earth, grass, and trees of all sorts from fir bearers, oaks, to fruit trees. The best part about the island, is it’s just that… surrounded by ocean waters and all her treasures.

As I walk the island in-lands, I hear a lobster boat making its rounds. I imagine the life of a lobsterman with the sea beneath his feet. I wonder for him if it’s a life of passion, or a life of need? Perhaps the work has been passed down from generation to generation. Perhaps the work is a newly found love.  Maybe it’s the constant yearning of the soul to feel the wind on its face and the warmth of the sun on its back. Perhaps it’s the constant movement of the ocean’s ebb and flow, and vast space between shore and ship that gives one the sense of freedom. For me, I am simply thankful as I walk the paths of this peaceful and calming island, knowing that the sound of the lobsterman’s boat is bringing Yummy-ness of the sea to the table.

I walk with an open heart and mind, and knowing that I am never alone I begin to listen to the words carried on the winds… With camera in hand, seeking “now” moments, I come to my favorite island tree. I know this tree, it’s a healing tree. I have admired this tree for years and have had the pleasure of witnessing the transformation and growth through the seasons, each season brings in more beauty than the season before, just as if it were a mirror to my own life and seasons of change.

Seeking a nice angle to really see and feel the life within,  I find myself laying on the ground ever so close, admiring her strength, composure, and ability to bend with all elements. I am in awe of spirit and the capability to create, I am in awe of the human body, and how amazingly designed we are too. I am reminded that we have the tools to also bend with the elements, tools of letting go… and if we listen, we have all of the answers within us to create an even flow. We also have tools in how to be the best person we know how to be. Within this thought I am also reminded that I don’t have to be better than anyone else, I just need to be my best self…  Thinking about the tools we have as human being, and about my greatest attribute, my imagination… along with the words of one of my favorite men, Albert Einstein “Imagination is more powerful than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.” I begin to allow my energy to merge with the energy of the tree. Lying ever so close, I imagine myself becoming part of the tree. My body its trunk, my arms its branches, my hair its leaves. Feeling the sun on my body, I close my eyes and begin to imagine the sun as a great beam of light coming from the universe and coursing through my being starting above my crown and flowing right out the soles of my feet. My body begins to vibrate with this amazing light filling every cell of who I am. I linger here experiencing the moment, savoring the feeling of oneness. When I feel so full of this great amazing light, in my mind’s eye I begin to see roots flowing out the souls of my feet and into the earth moving deeper through the nutrient rich soil and deeper into the earth’s core until my roots dip into bedrock laden with nutrient rich water. I begin to imagine that I am able to bring some of this nutrient rich life force energy up through these roots and into the souls of my feet moving up through my legs, into my torso, my arms, my chest, my throat, my head, circulating within each and every organ, through each chakra, every gland, every inch, filling me with life; healing, cleansing, renewing, restoring vitality and good health for my body, mind, heart and soul.  When I feel so full, so complete,  I give thanks and allow my roots to come back up through the  earth’s core, back into the souls of my feet, up my legs, and curl up at the base of my spine, filling every cell and space within me with vibrant glowing energy of healing light.

For moments, I am quiet and feeling one with the tree, the earth, the universe and feeling so blessed…

The Island; connecting, renewing, restoring, with beautiful love and light. I am ALIVE!

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Ebb and Flow


The other day I had an appointment with my naturopathic doctor; we were discussing the depth of my hot flashes, which by the way I find incredibly amusing. Maybe in a year or two when she asks again, I might be singing a different tune, but today they are simply entertaining.


The heat starts on my thighs and makes its way to the top of my head, very warming, and very yang. The correlation is much like a contraction, waxing slowly, peaking, and then waning – lasting from 30 to 60 seconds. The amusing part is to count the seconds while breathing deep into my belly and on the exhale allowing every part of my body to relax. The entertaining part is to see how long I can either leave my blankets intact or my layers of clothing on, usually done by visualizing I’m walking through a blizzard with high winds gusting 15 to 20 knots, sometime 30 to 40 knots depending on the intensity of the heat. Then sometime after, coolness comes to my body, starting at my head and working its way to my feet, very yin like and within the coolness I am comforted by my blankets and layers of clothing.


When I was is in labor the contractions were bearable, accounted for, and accepted because I knew there was an end, and I knew within hours I would be holding in my arms the little love bundle with 10 tiny toes to kiss, and ten tiny fingers to hold close.


The reality of life is; I am not 25 years old, I am not 35 years old, hell, I’m not even in my 40’s. I am a month shy of being 51 years old and my body has its own mission, just as it had the mission to procreate and bring forth something magical. It mission now is bring me home to self, where truth and wisdom lies within. I am giving birth to me. How exciting is this?!


The warmth is a reminder for me to get in touch with my breath and my spirit within. I am one to stop and witness the beauty of life; the sun on my face, a slight wind that caresses my body, a lone leaf falling from a tree, a branch from a tree that flirts with my hair, a child smiling sweetly at mommy, an older couple holding hands, the stillness and quietness that comes from fog, the rain falling gently as it cleanses, clears, and restores the air, snow falling quietly in the midst of city lights, the warm sand beneath my feet, the smell, sight and sound of the ocean…  BUT, sometimes I get so involved with life’s tasks I forget about my connection with self.  The “warmth” is a guided reminder to stop, slow down, pay attention to self and simply take a moment to breathe.


 In thinking that there is something good coming with each body global warming trend, I am able to sink into self and find wit within this amusing process of giving birth to self. I welcome me, I welcome myself home.


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A moment in time…

Last Monday, myself and 14 other practitioners donated our services for the Turning Tide Ovarian Cancer Retreat  @ Camp Kieve in Nobleboro, Maine.

It was amazing to witness these women as they were nurtured, loved, cared for, and listened to. I can’t speak for the other practitioners, but if I could, I bet they feel equally blessed to have been invited to share the day with these wonderful women. When my day finally came to an end and I laid my body to rest, I felt so full of compassionate love. As I started to fall asleep, I heard the powerful words of Pathologist William Boyd, MD echo deep within my heart and soul…Image

“Tears that have no vent in sorrow make other organs weep”

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Crystal Energy

Something really wild happened one day when I returned home from spending a week off the coast of Maine.  I was in the kitchen removing cleansed crystals from the bowl getting ready to add more crystals to be cleansed for an upcoming Advanced Reiki Training class. I opened the cleansing bag and found my newest, very expensive, quartz crystal for the center of my healing grid waiting for me. For moments I held it in my hand admiring its beauty. Just when I thought about setting it down, I was like I was in slow motion as the crystal started to slip between my fingers and it just fell… hitting the tile floor… and as I watched it shattered and break…  I heard another noise in the room – at that same moment in time, John tipped over his glass of wine and dropped his cell phone. Dumb founded he says “What the fuck is going on?”  for me ~  I’m silent… sitting on the floor starring at this beautiful crystal with so many questions flowing through me, yet numb and dumbfounded. I’m not sure what I’m feeling, if anything… maybe – damn that was the fastest way to blow money… when I hear myself saying repeatedly “don’t cry over anything that won’t cry over you…, don’t cry over anything that won’t cry over you…” then my whole body began to vibrate and energy started to flow in vast amounts from my hands and feet, more than I have ever felt in my life – instant heat flowed throughout my whole being… At first it radiated just a few inches from my body, then inches turned into feet and feet in yards – I was flowing and glowing with amazing energy. John, who was witness to all of this just started laughing and just backed up to me… he’d been having sciatica problems and said “Hey, let’s put this energy to good use!” At this point, we both laughed as we stood there in the comforts of our kitchen with this glorious energy swirling, moving, and pulsating around us ~ healing, healing, releasing and let go of all that no longer serves us…

Not having the answers, I sent the QUESTION out to a team of healers. What was this all about? AND…Is it still use-able?  Also, why the instant energy coursing through my whole being?

Here at a few of the answers, which are quite Amazing!

Dearest Tami,
Your students are so lucky to have you for their teacher.  I hope you will always do some teaching now and then because you are a born teacher.
     Wow!   What an experience you and John had.  The first thing that came to mind was that your kundalini exploded wide open.  It was time and you were ready and with it comes the gift of great spiritual power.  I think that all the years of your light work plus I must give credit to my beloved ocean—the week there put you in the right ‘mood’ for it to happen.  I am going to see if Ben, my brother spirit guide, can give us any information.  Will add it to the bottom of this note after I ‘write’ with him.
  So sorry about your lovely crystal.  I think I would still use it, let it know you love it unconditionally even though it is broken.  
     Well, dear friend, I’ll close for now and will add Ben’s message soon as I get it.
                      Hugs and love, Sonya 
Dear Ben,
     Can you give me any insight to what happened with Tami’s energy experience?
     Sonya, so glad to hear from you.  Your friend experienced a huge surge of energy from the highest source.  She is at such a high rate of vibration now that she can expect more of the same.  Tell her not to fear, but to welcome this with open arms and open heart.  She is a major player in spreading light and healing so this was only to help her get her body used to the higher vibrations that are coming to earth people of the light.  The next time it happens please ask her to have the intent to send all that vibrating energy out to the world.  It will increase the light of our planet and help make the very best outcome for this, our time of change.
     Thank you, dear Ben.

Wow, the crystal thing….amazing!  Maybe the crystal needed to break to pass you some energy that was yours to use, but wasn’t going to be available to you in any other way?  I love the image of you and john backed up to each other, laughing while you enjoy the energy flow.  i wonder if you can still use the crystal upright in your healing grid…maybe stand it in a glass bowl of salt?   Erika 

Hi Tami: The crystal was meant to break releasing the strong energy into you. Yes you have a class this Saturday and it is highly probable that there will a person in that class in need of the extra love and healing and will compliment other things they are doing on their path. I do not believe the crystal will have anywhere near the vibration it once had but its job now lies in your hands. As you know our actions have reactions.” onward” The crystals are amazing, the one I got from you during attunement just plain vanished, I was devastated, felt a loss..  It was special to me.  However its loss opened doors in different ways. One more of many stories: I have ceramic bowl to cleanse using spring water and an exact amount of sea salt. I obtained a Nirvana ice quartz and put it in the solution, 24 hrs later the water was very warm almost to the point of too hot!! I took it out noting that the crystal itself was cool and the bowl was cool. No others’ I have do that.  So enjoy the people and their journey bearing in mind the energy is for some one.               Peace and balance, Bill


Interesting…I bet the extra sleep is preparing you to integrate the energy, while you are being downloaded. HAVE FUN with the NEW ENERGY!

I would sit with the crystal and ask for clarity and ask if it is to be used in a grid as it may be just for your personal growth….but you will find out…  I have no doubt. TRUST your own instincts, you have a great gift.

I would just pay attention to all the energy around you… Keep your antenna up and eyes open.

Enjoy! Edna 

Wow, My gut reaction...the energy you were receptive to it and accepted the gift.  Lucky you!  As for whether the crystals are still usable, I don't have any answers for you, except what does your gut say.  Glad John got to share...hope it helped him. June 
 Okay my sweet friend can I say I just finished reading this amazing witness of growth!  I cannot stop resonating in my legs….. it is quite a beautiful gift you two have been given.  YOU are the crystal sweetie!  Yes the tools are here for you yet you resonate…. I cannot stop the shivers from standing on my legs as I type to you.  Love You! Sunshine!!! Melissa 
What a beautiful gift you have been given----the crystal was willing to shatter and bare its core to give to you with love-what a sacrifice. I believe the crystal is working with you on a different dimension and is not meant for the grid right now until you absorb all it has to share with you and for you. The crystal trusts you because it has seen and felt you for years, so instead of using it to heal others-now you are to use it--I will be excited to see what glorious insights you give each other-a beautiful bridge. And you might want to smudge the house to clear it for the new energy. Dottie 
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The Tranquility of a Rainy Day in Maine…

Bliss, 100,000 Angels

Do you hear me calling you, the voice of a mother, and a father, and a child?

Would you recognize the truth?  Do you feel the love that’s falling from my eyes?

Take just a minute, come and rest you by my side.
Let me tell you your own story, let me walk you through your lives.
Only a second, that’s all it takes to realize
There’s a hundred thousand angels by your side.

Do you hear me talk to you?  I whisper through the doorways and pathways of your mind.
Clear like the morning dew and fresh from my journey across the ocean of blue.

Take just a minute, come and rest you by my side.
Let me tell you your own story, let me walk you through your lives.
Only a second, that’s all it takes to realize
There’s a hundred thousand angels by your side.

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